No one likes me

:risty ally was on oprah and fat.
funny not her belly or arms. we all gain weight differently.

eggs avocado cheese
half sandwich
french bread and oil
popcorn butter
fish
rissotto
bites of mac cheese
nuts
orange

plus I saw on Facebook that there was a party on Saturday night and I wasn't invited...It was a drinking party so it makes not getting invited more hurtful.

I get left out of AA couple functions because my husband is not an alcoholic and so he doesn't do the men's groups. Even if he doesn't drink when we go out with AA people the guys don't include him and for some reason we just don't talk about politics, sports like normal folks. My husband finds it hard when the talk turns to staying sober as it naturally does in a group of AAers.

When we get left out of a lot of normal events and I think it is because I don't drink even though I am very private about my alcoholism. I swear that Facebook can be the worse thing because you see pictures of events that you weren't invited to.

I tell myself (and it is true) some of the being left out isn't personal. People like me but sometimes the group is younger/older/drinkers/nondrinkers whatever I just get left out. If I want to be social I need to ask folks to do something.

I know it is complete insanity when I get that feeling of being left out and it was an event I wouldn't have gone to if I was invited. I just want to be invited.

Life sucks sometimes...