Things that are bugging me today. All this impending doom stuff. Plus X. was talking about greed and how we live in the greediest part of the country. Then I realized she was one of the greediest folks I know...
- I should have asked her to explain in more detail as I just assumed
- I should have asked if her not being happy was greedy, she has it all a great kid, her health, a great body, a great house, a great skill that allows her to write....and she is depressed and unsatisfied
I can't travel with her as her depression is not just chemical but situtational. If something goes wrong while we are gone I will feel like I have to take care of her and what if I can't.
Plus I am worried that I will get tired and then my anger at my father will come out sideways and I will tell her that I think she is ungrateful. I don't get her depression as her meds don't seem to work, one bad thing and her face falls and she is suicidal. But she is my friend and I don't want to hurt her.I just wish that she could control her thoughts so it wasn't so grim. I
I am so angry at the disease of depression and how it is so close to the victim role. I just want a my friend to be normal because I am scared for her. I have so many issues with co-dependency.
What a weird show "the closer" is. a show about drunks.
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