Regret

We will not regret the past...nor wish to shut the door on it....
I am having regrets. Regrets that we couldn't keep sailing b/c of my drinking and our inability to get along. I get it that I needed to get sober so that I could get happier. Or the other way around. ACOA really helps me and without it I couldn't be sober. And it makes our marriage happier and healthier. We really didn't like each other or have fun together for a long time. So sailing was a nightmare. But now we get along and I wish we could still be doing something exciting instead of what we are doing. Life just seems so boring right now.

And I am thinking of drinking while he is gone