Now What

First I should talk about the laundry mat flashback. But I have told it in two mtgs so it is over. I mentioned it to DH and he was like....you drank in laundry mats...

I am supposed to be building a commerce website for a friend. This is hard. Gone are my illusions that I want to do this for a living. This is way too much for me. I think I need to remember that even though I made $ in the industry, I was an imposter. It was not my dream, my passion, my sissinghurst. Okay so now what...I guess staying sober is exactly what I am to be focusing on right now.

Books to read:
Alice Steinbach - Educating Alice
Freya Stark - The Journey's Echo
Jane Fletcher Geniesse - Passionate Nomad

Quotes to live by:
Dostoyevsky - "One good memory, especially one from childhood, could give even the hopelesss something to hang on to."

Elisebeth Bishop "Should we have stayed home and thought of here?"

A. Stienbach "One of the things most worth doing was to cultivate the habit of close observation"

Wendell Berry "Always in the big woods when you leave familiar ground and step off alone into a new place there will be, along with the feelings of curiosity and excitement, a little nagging of dread. It is the ancient fear of the Unknown, and it is your first bond with the wilderness you are going into."

Questions:
Who do I imagine myself to be?
She found the life that suited her...what life suits me?

Let tomorrow come tomorrow....
xox WR