written earlier

So I wrote this earlier in livejournal. I guess I am checking out which blogging product is best. I kind of like the community. I live in a small town so it will be good to share.

I spend a lot of time surfing other people's blogs and finally started to write myself. Hmmm I know I can not be as profound as other people. But then this is the internet and the odds of anyone reading this are slim.
Here is my story... I knew I was alcoholic for a long time, I went to my first meeting w/o anyone forcing me too. I didn't stay sober for long (days) months later I asked to go to rehab for 32 days. I also didn't stay sober. That was almost exactly 3 years ago. Now in less than 48 hours I will not have had a drink for 365 days (12/12/05)....I remember exactly that last day. It is kind of cool because I didn't overdrink. I pounded a few paper cups of wine (I was at an auction) I bought a cool blown glass sculpture of a heart and I went home. I had no intention of it being my real last drink. I had been going to AA for a long time and still drinking. But now the day is here....
It doesn't count in the true AA sense as on May 19, 2006 I finished off a bindle that my husband had in the house (I hadn't insisted he get rid of it b/c I know somewhere deep inside I knew I could use it if I "needed to take the edge off") I picked up a white chip so my new date is 5/20/06.
But still I need to celebrate somewhere (so I will do it in space) that I haven't had my drug of choice for almost a year....I am not counting too much because given my track record I could use before Tuesday.
That's all...xox W
ps as I am writing this my DH comes upstairs smiling, he's done his happy drug, he reeks of smoke, he has no idea where I am in my sobriety in terms of time. He just knows I go to AA a lot.