Happy 2007

I didn't have a drink for the entire 2006. I did use another substance in May - so I do not have a year clean but hey it is still a milestone for me.

Tonight I went to a party with my husband and two friends who support my sobriety. There were several other AAers there. It was nice to be out and to not feel so consumed with the thought of drinking. That is something new. It probably helps that my 1st love just died of a drug overdose.

I am concerned and rightfully so that next week is the real test. I never relapsed in public. The ugly sneaky diseased side of me always said to myself "go ahead drink a bit no one will know". Of course they did and even if they didn't...the reality is that I knew and I am the only one that matters. I have a meeting to go to tomorrow at 11 and then plans with sober women. But the next time I have a day free I need to be careful that my disease doesn't start telling me to celebrate.....

xox to us for a sober 2007