Today I was watching the Actors Studio. I have always loved how at the end the host asks a set of questions.
"If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?"
I once heard a guy share that he hoped God would be waiting with a gin & tonic for him. For a long time I think I wanted that too. To be able to drink again in heaven. Today I got all choked up. Would I want that... and if so why. The actor was Russell Simmons. He was talking about spirituality and yoga stuff. I head that was why he was getting a divorce. Russell said "you did good kid". I want to want to hear that too. I want to not want to drink. My husband goes away soon for 10 days. I could drink then. Hell, I could drink now and choose not to. I choose not to. But yet I still want to. This is hell...
xox for another sober day.
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