Tuesday, January 9, 2007
angry again
I am a walking nightmare. Partly b/c I am overtired from last night (or maybe that's all of it). I just want to scream at everyone. And of course people are particurally annoying right now. My husbands business partner tried to convince me to go on some restrictive sugar free diet. And was insistent that I buy these drinks from him. True he has lost 30lbs and I could/should loose 10lbs. But get a grip sugar is my one vice. This guy is sober 11 yrs so he should know better. I actually almost started to cry- I need my ice cream-I need my fat. It is a layer of protection for me. I will stop the eating when I am ready. Plus now is not the time to make any changes that require any additional stress in my life. Ughh I hate everyone and I want to drink or at least eat!! xox to my little buddha belly (why are big boobs attractive but not a big belly?)
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You wrote this a few days ago, but I wanted to share that being tired is my number one ticket to craziness and volatile emotions. Also, you are right -- not drinking is *enough* right now! No need to think about anything else. Enjoy your ice cream and your sugar, just do whatever is necessary to stay sober. Hugs.
I know the HALT thing. In fact I am going back to bed now!! No anger today!!
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