busy days

Another too busy of a day. I keep telling myself to look forward to Thurs. I think this is god's way of keeping me from having too much time on my hands while my DH is away....
xox W
an update...[I might have to change this blog as I hate my google user name]
another update...I met with my sponsor to continue working on my 9th step (figuring out exactly what to say).

Character defect update: one of my big defects is that I like to gossip and be negative. I know this comes from childhood when my mom only really liked to talk to me when we were putting down others. She was very insecure and this I can see how negative talk made her feel "better than". I have this trait where even for institutions I like to put them down. I volunteer for a local organization. I shared with another volunteer that I thought the organization is messed up. No focus, too much politics, blah blah. I don't really have all the facts and I know it. I just see my little part and frankly don't want to take the time or effort to see if my facts are real. They are just stuff I say cause I think it will keep people talking too me (like childhood). Today at the volunteer luncheon where I was getting an award. A woman who more than 6 months ago I said something negative too abt this organization, walks up to the brand new CEO and says. "Oh talk to Wilma, she has tons of ideas for improvements". Which I do not. A few months ago she went up to a local city council man and said something similiar although a bit more harsh. "Wilma thinks that organization is trash, here ask her and she will tell you why not to work with them". That is not what I had confided in her that day. I was merely venting. I tried telling her then that my comments were taken out of context. Today I got super mad and in front of the new CEO I told her to never tell anyone what she thinks I think. She is not naive she was trying to feel better about herself by showing others she has inside information. I need to learn that people will twist what you say. Or say the truth. Only say what you want repeated to the masses. I know this about email. Never write what you don't want forwarded. I need to learn to be this way with my tongue.

xox wr