South Beach Day 2 - Patience & Tolerance

Today is Sunday -

! Breakfast at house - leftover tallapia from book club, leftover zucchini, Coffee no cream

! Coffee w/ milk at talk after church....I am so so so so proud I didn't eat any of the bad stuff that they put out for the talk. Today was the funny rabbi. I need to take notes but he is a trip.

! Lunch at C. - good healthy salad as that is all she knows - no protein though
Snack - black beans w. salsa

! Dinner - salad w/ light olive oil, 1/2 pork chop, peas & green beans, plantains

! Dessert - sugar free jello orange + 2 radishes & soft cheese

GK doesn't understand or believe in a diet that says no carrots....

Weight in am 130.? I need to start writing this down but until I break 129 I won't be too impressed as I have been fluctuating at this 130-135. As I write this I am back up to 132.8

now im in bed. just weighed and 133. i know weight fluctuates. my night eating cravings are huge but i really need to try to get back to my pre election weight.

tomorrow's goals - exercise, drink more water, stick w no sugar carbs.
Okay the hard part starts now...I have night eating disorder so it is hard to get through from now until midnight....I need to get some snacks tomorrow.

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Patience and Tolerance. I am going through a situation where a charity I am on the board of sent out a request for presents. These are adults with disabilities (downs, autism, retardation). So I raised $200 per person and started shopping for the items on the list. Well it turn out the present requests were never reviewed and the charity is in financial trouble and wouldn't have spent so much per person. On Friday a full week after the list was sent out I was at the charity office and the executive director called me into his office. He is a Navy man so he proceeded to lecture me like I was some flunkee. I don't take well to that tone so I pointed out where he was on the email chains and he had time to act. A full 7 days. He didn't like being shown he was wrong and stated "I feel like you are attacking me.". I stated the same back. He then brought in the PR person and proceed to go through all the ways this was out of hand. Finally I had to leave as it had been over and hour and I had other commitments. Remember I am a volunteer. But I need to look at my part. I need to remember that I can stop before "I attack back" and do what he did...state "I feel I am being attacked." I can ask for clarification before I respond in anger. I did try it this morning with my husband when he went off on me.
I also know I was raised to be negative. My mother is drunk and a very insecure person. When I came home from a friends house, if I said "the house was pretty, the mom was nice" she left the room. If I said "the house was a mess, the mom was fat" she poured herself a glass of wine and asked me for more details. She rewarded my "negativity" by paying attention to me. So to get attention, I still cop to the negative and don't understand why others find it distasteful...my mom didn't. So I work to catch myself before I go into a tirade taking someone elses inventory.
HALT needs to be my mantra. Think before I speak. Try to remember I don't need to be constantly talking, I can ask questions and then just listen...listen but not comment or give unsolicited advice.